A few of you already know, but for those who don’t, I’m getting ready to make a huge life changing decision. I’m honestly going to try to quit smoking for good. This is going to be SO hard, because I really love to smoke. I enjoy it, I look forward to it, I miss it when I can’t have it. And I’m going to crave it when I’m trying to quit. I’m going to lust for it. But when I go to see my psychologist at the end of the month, I’m going to ask him to write me a script for Chantix. A lot of people I know have had great luck with it, and the worst is just the slight nausea for the first week or so. And I’m going to continue to smoke until I get on the medicine, because I’ve tried quitting ‘cold turkey’ and trust me, it’s not pretty.
I’m just really starting to think in terms of my long term future. I see people on oxygen everyday, struggling to do daily activities, let alone breath and function. I’ve watched (literally, he was one of my patients) a man die from COPD, and watched three of my grandparents die from chronic lung problems and cancer. My neighbor, Jim, is dying from it. I want to have a child in the next three to five years. I don’t want that child to suffer because I couldn’t give up smoking soon enough. I know that it will be hell, but I really hope that this time I can quit for good. Wish me luck!